Christian rap artist Lecrae recently sat down with The Christian Post and spoke candidly about the ups and downs of his life and career. He discussed topics such as his deep depression, marital struggles, and the excruciatingly painful yet rewarding power of restoration.
Last week, Lecrae released his latest and perhaps final studio record, “Restoration.” According to the 41-year-old hip-hop phenom, this album is his most vulnerable one to date.
The album is accompanied by a three-part YouTube series dubbed “The Road to Restoration.” Lecrae also has a book scheduled for release on Sept. 13, titled I Am Restored: How I Lost My Religion But Gained My Faith.
The rap artist revealed the reason for his sudden vulnerability and transparency.
“You’re going to have to be fully known in order to be fully grown. That’s just what’s going to have to happen. So I wanted to model that,” Lecrae said.
“I think Jesus models it perfectly by Him in the garden sweating and asking, could His friend stay up and pray with Him? That’s some serious vulnerability.”
When asked why he wanted to open up about his personal life, Lecrae said, “I just think it was time. I wanted people to see who I was as a human being. That’s really a large part of my being restored, my faith being restored, my mental, emotional, spiritual self. Finding healing there was being free to not be a caricature, being free to be all of myself and to let people see that for who I was.”
The Christian Post moved on to discuss Lecrae’s fame and how it consumed him. The rap artist admitted that he was “bitten by the fame bug,” which caused him to go astray.
“Nobody’s immune from it… It’s very subtle, but it starts to take root in your heart. If you don’t have the tools to fight [fame], then it really does take a toll on you,” he said.
“So everything is not about doing things out of love and out of freedom and out of faith. It’s about doing things out of ‘I have to perform to be loved because if I don’t perform, I will not be loved.'”
Lecrae explained how the realization of his depression due to fame helped him see the need for a change.
“First, it had to be revealed to me that that was even something I was struggling with. Honestly, the wake-up call for me was waking up in a clinical depression. It was like, ‘Something is wrong with me.’ It wasn’t like ‘I’m sad. It was like I have no ability to enjoy things,” he recalled.
“I think God just put me on my back in order to give me the opportunity to say, you’re going to have to take a deeper look at yourself and some of the issues that you have, the trauma that you have, and really do some work internally,” he added.
Lecrae also opened up about his marital struggles. He spoke about the power of God’s restoration despite how difficult things become.
“If I’m going to be completely honest, it took us years to get to a breaking point. It took us years of just kind of like going through the motions, and not really dealing with all the small pile-ups over the years,” the Gospel artist stated.
“What I would tell people is that if you have not exhausted yourself with counseling, with working on yourself, then you haven’t given it everything you got. You can’t change another person, but you can work on yourself in that process,” he added.
“But listen, there’s no marriage that’s beyond restoration. God can do it, sincerely, and I just want people to get that.”
Read the full interview here.