Gospel singer and entertainer Kirk Franklin posted a video on Instagram over the weekend in which he revealed his struggle with depression and anxiety amid the “high amount of loss” he experienced this past year. Franklin attributes his struggles to the deaths of those closest to him.
In Franklin’s video, he revealed, “[In] 2019, I experienced a high amount of loss in my life. I went to more funerals in 2019 than I’ve ever been to in my life. I went to the funerals of friends, the funerals of people’s parents and the funeral of people’s kids and it was a lot.”
On December 30, 2019, Franklin’s pastor, Tony Evans, lost his wife to biliary cancer and fellow Christian music artist TobyMac lost his 21-year-old son, Truett, on October 23, 2019. The weight of anxiety and depression that these events caused was often too much for Franklin to bear.
“It just really brought a lot of anxiety. To me, I really struggle with a lot of anxiety and really got into a funk that I couldn’t really get out of,” he recalled. “[It was] this just really dark funk, that I was in, depression, battling it.”
Experiencing so much loss caused Franklin to really think about his own life and what’s in store for the future. He started to fear things that he had no control over, and it was robbing him of his joy. He decided to reach out to his therapist for some godly counseling.
“I was just talking to him about being very anxious and very consumed with fear and worry and just the struggle with it all,” he said. “When I begin to live a life of gratitude, more gratitude then I will begin to be more selfless because fear is rooted in self.”
Franklin also reiterated how a trip to the Dominican Republic allowed him time to decompress from a very painful 2019. It helped him realize just how fortunate he was for the life God has blessed him with.
Franklin shared one final bit of encouragement at the end of his video. He said that his therapist told him something very profound that changed the way he looked at his situation. His therapist urged him to repeat the following words in the mirror: “I am a miracle I am not acknowledging.”
“The fact that we’re still alive is another miracle, the fact that we still have the activities of our limbs, the fact that we made it this far, that we were not stillborn, that we’re here,” Franklin added. “We are a miracle we are not acknowledging. [I] hope that encourages you, it encouraged me… Have a strong year.”